Wednesday, September 30, 2009

Wednesday, Sept 30, 2009

Wednesday night after church. It was a really great night at the Crusade at my church (FBC Rogers). Lots of people, great music, perfect message, Razorback drum line, dozens of people getting baptized. God being glorified and His love being shared.

We were wanting to have clothes on hand for people to get baptized tonight right after the message, so I got to make trips to 2 Walmart stores to pick up tshirts, undies and shorts. Thankfully, the shorts were all on clearance since it is the end of summer, but that also meant that there weren't many sizes available. I did have fun with the assignment of picking everything up. On one trip, the shopping cart was stacked taller than me! The cashier asked what all of it was for and I got to share with her about the Crusade and being ready to baptize lots of people. She is a Christian and thought it was pretty cool. Now I need to take what I can back for a refund tomorrow. Crazy, but it was well worth it!

Jet and I took another long walk tonight before church. He was a little tuckered out on the way back. He is as out of shape as I am, so no mercy on either of us! We must keep it up! The weather (and my health) have allowed us to make it out for a walk for the last 5 days. I'm not sure if there are any blades of grass that he hasn't sniffed, but we'll keep up our walks to make sure...

I'm looking forward to helping the 12th grade girls group from our church get ready for the My Closet clothes giveaway this Saturday. I'll get to help prepare the 'boutique' tomorrow and Friday.

My friend Sarah is supposed to move to rehab tomorrow. She's getting a little stronger every day. I hope to get down to see her on Saturday, and at least once a week thereafter. I'm trying to think of little 'happies' to take her, so if you know of some good ideas, let me know!

I'm thankful to be feeling better this week. Not having tests and being able to rest when needed and eat healthy food and take my vitamins and healthy supplements is helping a lot. Of course, the best medicine is prayer! I have an appointment with Dr Bob next Tuesday. I hope he's ready for me! I have lots of questions. Keep praying about what the best course of action is for me.

Elaine had gallbladder surgery today and is feeling better already. I'm so thankful that she found a doctor who would take care of her problem! I'm so glad for her.

I'm looking forward to Deanna to come home next week, too. I sure do miss her. I know the pets do, too. We can't wait!

I've been thinking a lot about the Covenant that God has made with us. It's so much more than just a gift from Him. I just love Him.

Monday, September 28, 2009

Monday, Sept 28, 2009

The last Monday of September. I love fall! Cool, sunny days; chilly nights, fall clothes, new socks! (a personal favorite!) I bought a few little candles this week. Mulled Cider, Cinnamon Vanilla and Hazelnut Creme. I light them all at once. mmmmmm it smells good! I think I'll need to get some cider this week for a little evening sipping...

I'm feeling better now that I'm not doing tests and I'm eating really healthy and on my vitamins and supplements. Jet and I have taken a 30 minute walk each of the last 3 days. I'm hoping we can keep it up every day, weather permitting. We both need the exercise! I'll be signing up at the Wellness Center soon. (I just need to make the time.)

The Ronnie Hill crusade is going great at church (FBC Rogers). I really enjoy hearing him speak. The worship music has been moving. People are accepting Jesus as Savior and getting baptized. It's a good week. All Glory to our sovereign God!!

I attended a Spanish class this morning. It is going to be great. I tend to get hung up on grammar and trying to speak perfectly. That keeps me from engaging in conversation sometimes. I know this class is going to help me have more confidence and open up more easily. We will be studying grammar and vocabulary and such for half of each class and then conversation and real life situations for the other half. I think it's a perfect plan. Oliver is a really gifted teacher. The others in the class are very nice and we all have a heart to bring others to Christ, so it will be a blessed time together.

I had time to visit at the Food Pantry this morning after class. The Lord is really working through that mission. Today we gave food to 11 families. 7 people accepted Christ as Savior. It's a great ministry. Food donations from the church congregation are coming in routinely. And the food is going out just as fast. More volunteers are needed to serve on Monday and Fridays (10am-noon) to talk with people and to help pack the boxes of food. Pray that those whom God has called to be a part of this ministry will heed His call and get involved. It's a blessing for all!

We'll start collecting outerwear items soon to be distributed to families in need. What a blessing to everyone who will feel the warmth of coats and jackets. Only second to the warmth of God's love in our hearts.

I'm looking forward to working on the plans for fall and winter ministries. I'm thankful to feel better so that I can be more productive. I'm very thankful to be able to work from home and to be able to meet with people around town.

I'm very blessed by my Lord to be able to serve Him full time. Thank you to all of you who help to make that possible for me. Your love and prayers and support are priceless.

Praying blessings on you, and praising our Father in all things.

Saturday, September 26, 2009

Saturday, Sept 26, 2009

Chillin' on a Saturday night, sippin' some hot green tea and reflecting...

It's been beautiful today. The weather is sunny and warm, but not too hot, just right. Jet and I took a nice little walk this evening. We haven't been walking for a few weeks and it was really nice. I hope we can walk everyday until the winter weather turns nasty. I've also been sitting outside on the patio a little more. I love being outside.

I'm feeling better now that I'm not doing some kind of nasty test every week or so. I didn't realize how much worse I was feeling just from the junk they were putting into my body for the scans. I'm back on my healthy supplements and, of course, healthy food. This has made me feel better, too. Dr O is ruling out one more thing this week and then Dr Bob will take over again. The saga continues, but I'm thankful to be feeling better now than when I was while going through all the tests. A few of the people I have fun into in the last few days have told me how much better I look. I think I look tired and haggard, so I must have REALLY looked BAD before! ha

Thursday, I got to spend some time with the Janes family and hold baby Phillip while he napped. He is so sweet! It was fun to see the kids and visit with Becca. I just love that family!

I got to spend some time at the Food Pantry yesterday. There wasn't much traffic, but it was a good time of sharing between workers. I also got to connect with a friend I hadn't seen in a while.

I spent a little time with my friend Sarah, who is in the hospital very ill recovering from surgery. God worked a huge miracle in her situation and she has a long way to go. It can only happen with God's hand of healing and comfort. I feel so helpless in not knowing what I can do to make her feel better. It's so overwhelming. But it makes me think about just how big God is. Not even this reaches His limits. I pray for extra grace for Sarah and her family. And I pray that God will show me how to be a blessing to them.

The revival starts tomorrow at my church (First Baptist, Rogers) and I'm excited to see the high energy of God working in hundreds of lives for the next few days. Pray that hearts will be open to hear Truth.

I'll be getting busy with the local mission stuff of fall. I'll help out with Thanksgiving meals (I've missed that while gone), a Coat drive, Christmas Blessings (Angel Tree and Food Baskets), etc. It's hard to believe it's time for all these things soon. The year is really flying by.

I'll keep working on my Spanish lessons. I feel a definite calling from God to work on this to be useful here in NW Arkansas, as well as what He has in store for me for the future. My deepest desire is to be useful to Him in whatever way He asks. I want to be prepared. Pray for me to learn, understand and retain the language.

I'm so thankful to all of you prayer partners and supporters who make it possible for me to be able to serve the Lord fulltime as a missionary here as well as away. I pray God's blessings on you.

Monday, September 21, 2009

September 21, 2009

It's a sunny Monday. I love the sun. It just seems to make a day better.

I called the doctor's office this morning to see when I would have results from Thursday's biopsy. They said usually 7-10 days, but since my doctor was out, the nurse checked and found the results on his desk. Everything is fine with the hemangioma on my liver. I really felt that it would be. I'm thankful. Dr. O will be back on Wednesday, and I'm hoping to get to meet with him to find out what we are going to do to fix the problem (whatever it is). I had a little pity party and good cry this morning over this all dragging on so long. I want so much to be strong and healthy and able to work hard in whatever way God leads. After about 15 minutes I was praising Him in all things, even in frustrating health problems. He is sovereign and I trust Him.

I had a great caregiver for a couple of days in Elizabeth. She helped me in and out of the chair, fixed my food, took care of the animals and was a pleasure to be with. She is such a sweetie.

I had the chance to read a good book. "Lives Given, Not Taken", by Eric Bridges and Jerry Rankin. I love reading about missionaries and their lives and devotion to serving.

I've been able to spend time on my Bible study and Spanish lessons. I hope to have time to meet with my tutor soon! I need to just practice with my Hispanic friends, too.

We had a casualty here at the house last weekend. One of the fish in the outdoor pond was belly-up one morning. There was a problem with the pump and the poor guy didn't get enough oxygen in the water. The other 3 fish seem to be doing fine. Of course, the dog and cat are great. They keep me smiling at their funny personalities. I'm sure they miss Deanna. I'll try to keep them a little spoiled until she gets home.

In the last couple of weeks, I have been blessed to talk with some friends from all over. It is so great to catch up. I have truly been blessed with strong friendships that began while I served in nyc. I can't wait to see what God has in store for me in the future.

I'm looking so forward to Heaven and reuniting with Brothers and Sisters in Christ. Some I only had a few words with here in this life. But we'll all be together there. I get so excited when I think about it. I can't wait to see my Jesus.

Friday, September 18, 2009

September 18, 2009

It's Friday morning. Half of September is over. Doesn't time fly by?

Yesterday I had the most involved test yet on my journey of health. I'm growing very weary of all of the tests, but I'm thankful that the tests are available for diagnosis. I'm ready for everything to be fixed and for me to be well and full of energy!

I'm learning so much about livers and such. Since I had to be a 'participant' I was given a mild sedative to just take the edge off of the anxiety. They numbed the skin on my stomach where they were going to work with a local anesthetic, kind of like the dentist office. They made a small incision and then poked the needle thing in to my stomach, guided by an ultrasound. I didn't look, but did hold my breath when instructed and could feel them punch through to the liver. The needle contraption made a loud click sound when it snatched the tissue and I jumped. The doc asked if it hurt, which thankfully it didn't, it just scared me. It would have been nice to know that was going to happen. Note to doc: explain that part to the next patient! Then they did a second snatch and put a bandaid over the little incision. I finally looked and did see part of the needle contraption and was glad that I had not looked before then! The whole thing didn't take long. Then I was wheeled to the recovery area and was told by my wonderful nurse, Al, that my 'sentence' for lying completely still was 3 hours. I was allowed to eat and I had my cellphone for texting and facebook. Al checked on me every 15 minutes for awhile (blood pressure and heart monitor), then switched to every 30 minutes. He said I was a good patient. I couldn't have pain meds, even aspirin or advil, because of the risk of blood thinning. So I laid very still.

I learned another thing about the liver. It's full of nerves and the two 'little' punctures caused major pain across my whole front from waist to chin, side to side. It came in spasms at first and made it very difficult to move even a little. I kept saying how amazed I was at the way two tiny spots could affect such a large area. It really made me think about life and how seemingly little instances of sin can affect a huge area of our lives. God has created us so intricately that we can't even image. Only He knows how we are connected to His plan and each other. It is so important to be diligent and Christ-centered in every little thing, so that His plans can be accomplished in His way.

The car ride home was not the most fun I've ever had. And I was soooo happy to lay flat on the sofa when I got home. If I laid perfectly still it didn't hurt as much. No deep breaths, no coughing, no laughing, no scooting around to get more comfy. Perfectly still. The kind of still that God commands us to be in His presence to know that He is indeed our God. Every movement is a gift from God. Every movement minus pain is a gift from Him. Every movement with pain is a gift because it reminds us that we are able to move. I'm thankful to Him in ALL things. And I pray that keep my mind and heart open to remember these things.

I'm supposed to lay still for a couple of days and then take it easy for a week, so that the pokes will heal and that the pain will be as light as possible (since I can't have meds). So, I am blessed to have a great babysitter with me. Miss Elizabeth Janes is taking wonder care of me. She thinks it's fun to babysit me after the years of me babysitting her. The cat (LucyAlice) and the dog (Jet) LOVE her. I think she's having fun being in charge, too. She's a sweet blessing to me.

I should find out the results of the biopsy Monday or so. I've not been too concerned about the results because I truly trust God's plan. Since the position of the hemangioma is not in the spot of the usual pain I have (although it made the biopsy easier), I don't think it's responsible for my health issues. I'm just ready for the next step to being well. And as going the tests and waiting for results has not been the most fun, I acknowledge that God has plans for people to be touched through every step of the way. Please pray that I stay attentive to all the opportunities to share Him. Which reminds me of Dollie, the lady who admitted me yesterday. We spoke about being a missionary and sisters in Christ. What a sweet blessing!

Well, I have to get up from the recliner and walk to the bathroom. Pray for me people! It's an adventure!

Thank you all for your prayers. I lift you up to our Lord for many lessons and blessings in your lives, too. To HIM be all the glory!!

Wednesday, September 9, 2009

September 9, 2009

The weather has been giving me the feeling of changing seasons. Even though the weather has been up and down, it makes me think of fall. Having cloudy, drizzly days have added to the feeling. It's not a bad feeling... more reflective, I guess.

I've had a really hard time with homesickness for nyc. I've never really been homesick for any place before in my life, so this is strange for me. I don't miss any one particular thing. Just mostly friends (although we still stay in touch via texting, email and facebook, just like when I was in nyc), my favorite eating places (where I could easily get healthy food and try new things), just taking off out the door and walking everywhere (good times to think and pray), working in the shelters and soup kitchens (I miss the peeps and the giving of myself), the way of life (a state of survival, financially), the anonymity that goes hand in hand with the open acceptance, the closeness and strong reliance on God... I like the "me" that lived there. I'm trying not to get too caught up in the things of 'suburbia' that can distract me. (and I'm easily distracted!)

I have been able to keep in touch with lots of my friends from nyc, some of whom have actually moved to other parts of the country. In the 3 months since I've left the city, there has been 1 marriage, 3 engagements, 1 major health improvement, 1 move to another part of the city, just to name a few things. It makes me so happy for everyone. I'm thankful for God's blessings on them all. In some strange way, it gives me more closure on leaving the group of friends.

I think often about the workers at the Project Find locations and the people from my apartment building. I wonder what they are up to, if they see God around them, if a seed was planted through our relationships... I'm thankful to God for what they have meant in my life, and I pray that they see Him when they have memories of me.

Okay, enough reminiscing!!

Yesterday, I had what I hope is my last medical test for a while. I'm hoping that the Docs can figure out what needs to be done and get on with it! I'm ready to feel strong and healthy and get about doing the things God has allowed in my life. Getting old is not for sissies! I wish I would have taken better care of the old bod when I was younger! :)

Anyway, the Dr's office called me today (the very next day - that has never happened before!) and I missed the call! ugh! I guess I'll sleep on it and find out what's up tomorrow morning. I'm trying not to get my hopes up that we're moving forward, and I'm trying not to be too disappointed if they say 'another test' like they have each time I call for results of the last one. It's all in God's hands. I just get impatient.

Deanna is visiting her daughter's family who are missionaries in Las Vegas. I miss her, especially when it's time for Wheel of Fortune. We've made lots of pretend money on that show! Taking care of the pets and the plants is a pleasure. The cat has taken over the sofa in the den. I think she is showing me who is really in charge while 'mama' is gone. :)

Precept Bible study classes started yesterday. I have really missed Precept classes while I was gone. I'm enjoying it very much. I had the chance to work on it today. This semester we're studying Covenant. It's gonna be good!!

I also got a chance to spend some time on my Spanish lessons. I can't wait until Oliver sets a time for our tutoring sessions. No more playing around...I'm serious about working hard. I need some practice, practice, practice...

Well, enough reflecting for now. I'm so thankful for all God has blessed my life with... material things, good friends, tests and trials, joy and celebration, excitement and rest. He is good in all things.

Saturday, September 5, 2009

August 2009

Another monthly recap. I'm sure I'll forget so much that happened. I'm praying that God will remind of what He wants posted, if not here maybe in subsequent postings.

The month started out with me crazy busy with the planning for Back To School Bash. I was working very long days, but I was so used to doing it all myself while serving in NYC, that I just try to cover everything without imposing on other people. That's something I need to work on... Anyway, a new friend at church, Connie, spent over 40 hours just checking each of the 300 backpacks to make sure they were filled appropriately with unbroken items, etc. She was so wonderful to work with those 3 intense weeks before the Bash. God really blessed me with her!!

The Bash went well, snafus and all. It was a very hot and humid day. (are you seeing a pattern in weather on ministry days?) There was a breeze, which was one of those good news/bad news things. It helped move the stagnant hot air, but it also played havoc with the canopies and haircuts. All in all, everyone seemed to have a good time. We gave out the 300 backpacks in the first 30 minutes. Hundreds of people were lined up hours before we started. We went through a couple thousand water bottles, 900 hotdogs, enough popcorn to blow up the popping machine, 3 hours of constant sno-cone making, nachos and snack cakes. Various ministries of FBCR had stations which included a table for sign-up sheets, hand outs, etc, and a game or two. There was a station for free haircuts (very popular) and chair massages. Five inflatables were spread out over the area. Music and door prizes rounded out the festivities. It was a long, hot day, but worth all the hard work. Over 2,000 people visited us that afternoon. Some have started coming to church for worship and others are visiting our Medical Clinic and Food Pantry. We have lots of family information to follow up with to invite more families to join us to worship.

Most of the rest of the month I was busy meeting with tons of people. My challenge lately has been to become a sponge to soak up all kinds of information from different areas. I've been researching the needs in the community, ministries and agencies already in place and collecting info on the individuals and groups within our church who want opps to serve. I've met some great people and heard about some awesome programs, organizations, ministries and initiatives in the NWA area. It is exciting to me to see so many people reaching out to better the lives of others. I should soon be able to compile all of the incoming info and match needs and workers. Part of the mission for me is to help get projects and services up and going and to help equip and empower leaders to continue the work. I love all parts of those challenges.

I was busy in August running to medical tests. I had 3 in 3 weeks. The lady in the admitting office was getting to know me well, and the lady in the Imaging waiting room and I have been admiring each others short, gray hairstyles. I have another (and I hope my last) test on Sept 8. I hope then, that they will remove my finicky gallbladder. Then we can continue to baby my liver into submission. I've had some not-so-nice days and some sleepless nights with symptoms, but for the most part, I'm able to accomplish things as needed. I am looking so forward to feeling 100% again. Being in denial has not been working so good lately. I appreciate my docs, Bob and Dr. O, and the people at Northwest Bentonville have been really nice. I'm thankful for that.

The weather here has been cooler than normal for the end of August and first part of September. It puts me in a 'fall state of mind'. I've been experimenting with soup and chili recipes to make them healthy. They have been pretty tasty. I sure am enjoying getting to use a real kitchen. How fun!

I was invited to share with 2 groups of Senior ladies about God's call on my life as an M in NYC and here in Rogers. It's bittersweet to discuss NYC. I still miss it so. I miss the ministry of working in the shelters and soup kitchens. I miss my friends in the city. I miss my life there. I love living and working here in Rogers, but wish I could be both places at once. I'm also anxious to see where God sends me next. But, for now, I'll live in the moment and do my best at the task at hand. I'm thankful for God's plan in my life.

July 2009

Yes, it's been 2 months since my last post. Busy-ness, sickness and lack of internet at home has kept me from regular blogging. Also, I would feel so far behind that I would be overwhelmed in trying to catch up. Now, I'm so far behind, that any posting at all is progress. I'll try to condense everything into monthly recaps.

The month of July was full of high temperatures and tons of activity. I did a little more house/dog sitting, so there was a lot of running from here to there and living out of a suitcase. I counted it a huge event when I put the suitcase back in the garage. But I did love all the opps to visit/sit with dogs and houses.

The Youth at church opted for a week of 'Mission Rogers' instead of travelling to another city. Instead, over 60 kids slept/ate/showered/served/worshiped/fellowshipped at the church. I was there first thing each morning and came home to my own bed between 9 and 10 each night. Other than that, I was blessed to help organize their work schedules for the daytime hours and hang out with them.

Meals were great, as always, due to Janet Batson, who routinely goes along to camp to act as chef. Some of the food was even 'legal' for my dietary restrictions. I know that everyone really enjoyed great meals and snacks. Leftovers each day were donated to families who appreciated the gifts.

Each evening, after showers and before bedtime, was designated as missions time. I spoke one evening about being an M in NYC for 2 years and how God is working in my life here as a Missionary in Residence. One night we Skyped the Bridges, who are M's in Las Vegas. Another treat was having Tony, an M from our church whose family is stateside from India come and speak about their lives. On the fourth Missions night, a few of the youth girls shared about a Blood Water and Invisible Children. The kids had been on 40 days of water (instead of sodas) to tie into their initiative.

During the day, the kids broke into work groups. They served in many places around the area. Some once and some recurring throughout the week. The following are some of the agencies and ministries where they volunteered their time. (Remember it was a horribly hot and humid week. The kids were troopers!) Benton County Juvenile Detention Center, Horses for Healing, Samaritan Community Center - Rogers and Springdale, Helping Hands, Benton County Women's Shelter Thrift Store, Loving Choices, 5 city parks, FBCR property at Bellview, FBCR areas that were used by the kids, a few senior members' homes... They pulled weeds, cleaned church vans, cleaned rooms at the church, helped with donations and organized and cleaned at the thrift stores, cleaned and painted the rec area at the Detention Center, did outside cleanup, served meals, organized food donations, washed windows for businesses in downtown Rogers, distributed 2,000 invitations to Back To School Bash and Upward Flag Football, canvassed for an apartment ministry to start up at the Rogers Commons Apartments, picked a garden and donated the food to families in need, prepped the 300 backpacks for the BTS Bash, and held a 5 day Kid's Bible Club at Doubletree Apartments. It was a VERY BUSY week!

The following week, a group of 21 from Dallas came to FBCR to work with Cuerpo Vivo, our Hispanic congregation, on a week-long VBS in Spanish. On Thursday evening, our Youth co-hosted with Cuerpo Vivo a Block Party at Doubletree Apartments. There were over 20 professions of faith that night amidst the hotdogs, popcorn, sno-cones, snacks, drinks, music and games. It was a great evening.

July also brought about another week long Kid's Bible Club in a neighborhood near the church. The families who hosted it work hard in the heat with music, Bible stories, games, crafts, snacks and love.

We got the Food Pantry up and running the first Monday in July. It has been a steady ministry to families every Monday and Friday morning. We've been busy working on the process to gather food donations, advertising, getting volunteers in place, etc. Jim and Shirley McGimpsey are in charge and have an awesome heart for people. There's been over 20 families come through in July and 2 professions of faith with 2 new families attending church on Sundays. I've been blessed to get to know those 2 families well.

Backpacks and shopping lists for school supplies were distributed to church members over 2 Sundays in July. They were returned filled and ready to give out at BTS Bash on Aug 8. A lot of work went into preparing for the Bash and that filled out the rest of July.

Oh yeah, the medicine I tried for cholesterol made me violently sick. It was horrible. Especially since I was dog/house sitting at the time. That made 4 different meds I have tried for cholesterol that make me sick, so I have retired from trying any more. I do still take Zetia, which is not a statin drug, so that's my compromise. Once that new med was out of my system, I was back on my feet and able to function once again. :)

I've enjoyed living at Deanna's and we are like 2 peas in a pod. We both have our private rooms and sometimes hang out together in the living room and kitchen. It's very comfortable and restful. I am very blessed.

I think that's it for July. It all seems a blur now... But it was busy for God and that's what matters. He is awesome and deserves our best.